Graphs of food intake

Reviewing the utter insanity of the anorexic and bulimic food intake was extremely powerful and motivating for me. I see spikes of pain, loss of control, hopelessness and self-hate in the lines jagging up and down across these pages. I see white knuckles and doubt, fists balled up so tightly you can’t breathe, and cuticles picked off at the edges of 10 brittle fingernails. I see bodies too weak to play sports, brains too foggy to read, and mouths too sore to speak. I see deprivation shrinking one’s capacity for empathy or caring about others, and binges so explosive ones stomach rides up into the mouth. I see hell. I see it because I have lived through it. And I want to be on the other side.

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