the discovery happensin the waiting years pass (merely minutes)i trudge along looking for distractions there is an unveiling of sortsin the waiting, in the weighting… frustration, overwhelm, confusionimpatience, disappointment, worryraw, restless memories of soggy oatmealpushing up my throat a strange aftertaste lingers in my mouthwhen the urge has passed,when it’s okay to unbuckle it tastesContinue reading “in the waiting (poem)”
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Rules of Threes
When I met with my therapist EF on March 4 she gave me a meal plan that has absolutely changed my life. It’s the simplest thing in the world, but it’s my first exposure to it. It’s actually my first exposure to any kind of meal plan or approach to eating aimed at recovering fromContinue reading “Rules of Threes”
and God is like the air (poem)
i imagine an actual storm within meand God is like the air creating the spacefor the thunder and lighting and rainto be and do and speak interspersed among the moleculesof change and changing i imagine an actual storm within meand pieces of dust scatterand God is like the air
Fighting Forward
A few things coincided to give me the push I needed to pick up the phone and make the brave call to a dietitian specializing in eating disorders. Reading Hannah Brencher’s “Fighting Forward” was one of those things. I’ve included a few key passages below that spoke to me… it was as if she wasContinue reading “Fighting Forward”
liar, liar pants on fire (poem)
God, i am sore in my believingyears of tiny triumphs and huge defeatspile on my shouldersand crack with the weight of shameand misunderstandingdeserted by the earth and unwelcome by the heavensthe only place to call homeis this puddle of tears by my bed
running shoes (poem)
i am never full but always about to explodethese imaginings still haunt me, decades laterit seems impossible it has not resolvedit seems impossible that it could have beenthe sages tell me i cannot think my way into right action–all the studying cannot help me nowbut if i just choose to put one foot forwardthe otherContinue reading “running shoes (poem)”
deciphering truth (poem)
if God wants us to ask questionsthen i have come to the right place my head swarms with a reel of scripturesi cannot translate or understand through time and spacethere have been hundreds of right answers deciphering truth is a full-time joband like sand on an ocean floorit shifts and moves 20,000 leagues beneath myContinue reading “deciphering truth (poem)”
Tasting Freedom 