Author Archives: bellelancaster

Effective Healthy Statements (recovery exercise)

At EF’s recommendation, I’m reading “8 Keys to Recovery from an Eating Disorder: Effective Strategies from Therapeutic Practice and Personal Experience.” One section outlines many effective healthy statements for my healthy self to tell my eating disorder self. These are the ones that resonated the most for me. Effective Healthy Statements This feeling seems intolerable,Continue reading “Effective Healthy Statements (recovery exercise)”

sticky strawberry juice (poem)

it’s franticand i am, too sticky strawberry juicewraps around the corners of my bowlleft over from children’s meal time it bothers meas i sit down and try to rest my handsup on the tabletrying to be mindful, thoughtful but eating descends quickly into shovelingtasted in only tiny bitshere and there i worry i will neverContinue reading “sticky strawberry juice (poem)”

Rise Up & Recover App

I’ve using an app called Rise Up & Recover to log my meal plan, and I LOVE IT! I record what I eat (meal log) but I also record how I’m feeling while I’m eating. In addition, there is a section for notes/context and a section for ED behaviors done around the eating. I amContinue reading “Rise Up & Recover App”

Rules of Threes

When I met with my therapist EF on March 4 she gave me a meal plan that has absolutely changed my life. It’s the simplest thing in the world, but it’s my first exposure to it. It’s actually my first exposure to any kind of meal plan or approach to eating aimed at recovering fromContinue reading “Rules of Threes”

Writing Assignment: A Great Day in the Life of Recovery from My Eating Disorder (exercise)

“There Will Be Cake” To be free of the obsession….that is what a day in the life of recovery will look like.  A day in the life of recovery firstly means I’m not constantly monitoring if and when I need to throw up throughout the day, or worried I won’t be near a toilet whenContinue reading “Writing Assignment: A Great Day in the Life of Recovery from My Eating Disorder (exercise)”

Writing Assignment: Worst Day Of My Eating Disorder (exercise)

I’ve been doing this so long, I have multiple memories related to the horror of having an eating disorder run and ruin my life.  7th grade – First time purging in the half bathroom of our kitchen.  I chose one of the hardest, messiest foods to throw up – spaghetti.  I remember being so painfullyContinue reading “Writing Assignment: Worst Day Of My Eating Disorder (exercise)”

the landing place (poem)

maybe we have to becomecompletely unlike ourselves first let the air between our joints blow uplike a bubblepushing the body away from itself then see how it comes back togetheror doesn’t the landing place could be miles and milesaway from where we startedor we could end up next door there are so many hills toContinue reading “the landing place (poem)”